I have a vanity in my bedroom where I do my makeup. I’ve had it for about a year and I love that I got it. I used try to get ready in my small bathroom while standing up the whole time and with my kids coming in and out to use the bathroom. It wasn’t ideal.
And because I actually like putting my makeup on and taking time to get ready, I figured a place away from the rest of the busy house where I could sit and take my time would be a better spot. Well of course it’s at a height that everyone can reach. And by everyone I mean my children. Willow loves to grab the mirror and pull it to see herself. Cannon also enjoys playing at my vanity while smudging up my mirror.
Well as time has passed, that mirror has gotten pretty grimy. There are finger prints and smudges all over it. There is even something sticky that hasn’t been identified yet. And little by little my reflection has become more hard to see clearly.
I’m looking at this mirror that is tainted and dirty, and it makes me see my face a little distorted. It has made my reflection look off and I’m unable to really get a clear picture of how I truly look.
I started thinking about that mirror and how I’ve let grime build up. I’ve let other people put their hands on it and they have dirtied it up. I just keep using it with all that mess on it. I guess I’ve gotten used to the way I look through its tainted reflection.
It made me think about how I do that in life as well. Words are said to me that make me feel ashamed. Friends have hurt me and leave a residue of disappointment and abandonment. I allow our culture to put fingerprints on my heart that start to cloud up the true reflection of who I am.
Little by little, we have been handled without care and with the wrong hands and we start to try to see ourselves through a dirtied mirror.
Well, this weekend, I sat down to do my makeup and looked into my mirror that was completely clean and cleared of all marks and residue and I couldn’t believe how easy it was to see myself the way I truly look. I was no longer having to squint and look past the mess. It was so nice to see myself without the junk messing with my vision.
My husband had cleaned the mirror when we were cleaning and I didn’t know he did that. It probably took him 2 minutes to do and I wondered why I hadn’t just done it myself! I hadn’t liked seeing myself through a dirty mirror but just never took the time to clean it.
Sometimes I think we need people to help us see ourselves as we truly are. Sometimes we need people who really love us to help us clean our mirror and show us the reflection that they see. And sometimes we just need God to come in with a clean sweep and wipe away all the yuck clouding up our reflection.
Either way, we need help with seeing ourselves as we truly are. And as we see ourselves more clearly, we will start to be able to decipher between who we really are and who the world has told us we are. We will notice the difference and be able to know when it’s time to erase the stuff clouding up our vision.
As time passes, the mirror will get smudged again and will be in need of cleaning. I will have a misconception of myself while looking through it and I’ll need to get rid of the yuck once again. But hopefully this time, I will be able to recognize it before it takes over the whole mirror and hand it over to the One who does the most thorough cleaning of them all.
Where in your life is your perception of yourself tainted and dirtied up? Who has marked you and caused you to see yourself in the wrong way? Give your mirror to God and ask Him to clean it up for you. Hand it to Him for a refocusing of who you really are and the reflection that He sees. It’s a much more lovely sight to see yourself through a clear and true reflection that hasn’t been dirtied up by others. He is ready to show you what He sees when He looks at you.