I want you to know today that is OK for you to take from God. What I mean is that there are seasons we go through that leave us depleted and empty and weak and in those seasons God wants to pour out His spirit on you and for you to come and be filled by Him. And that requires “taking” from Him.
I asked God to use my words today for my readers. I want to encourage and remind you of His goodness and absolute ability to fill you up with every single thing you need. And that He is more than ok with you taking from Him.
I am in a season where I just don’t have much to give. I am having some pretty serious health issues stemming from my autoimmune diseases and stress is the main culprit. I am extremely tired all the time, I am inflamed with constant pain, I’m not stable in my moods, I am depleted of many nutrients and minerals I need. I’m just not feeling well. And therefore, just doing the regular mom/wife/human tasks are hard right now.
Obviously, stress is unavoidable in life. I have 3 kids, we have financial burdens, we have things that break and sickness is stressful. You can’t really get away from stress completely but I’m learning how to cope with it all. And coping with it all requires me to take. I’m not meaning to become selfish and drain the people around you. I mean drawing from the source, from God.
Yesterday I was driving to work and listening to worship music and praying. I was apologizing to God for not doing much for Him lately. I was feeling guilty and like I have been purposeless. I felt Him immediately say to me, “How can you give what you don’t have? I want you to take from Me right now. I want you to stop trying to pour out from your emptiness. You have nothing to give and I give you permission to take all that you need from me, because I do have a specific purpose for you and I need you to be full again so you can pour out. Stop trying to give and start taking from me.”
Obviously, I started crying, (If you haven’t noticed, I am QUITE the crier ;) and felt immediate relief. What a relief to let go of the guilt and shame. He gives me permission to be still. He gives you permission to take all that you need from Him in your weakness, in your struggles, in your pain. And says to in His word. “Come to Me and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
We put such a responsibility on ourselves to do so much and give so much and it becomes a burden sometimes that God never intended us to carry. It then becomes a works mentality that drives our relationship with God and leaks into our relationships with people. The pressure to do enough and be enough and give enough so that we are worthy.
But I’m finding that I’m trying to do it all on my own. I don’t just come to God and allow Him to fill me up and then send me out. I skip the first part and just send myself out and busy myself and feel like a failure all the while.
I believe that God does have purpose for us and that there is much work to do, but sometimes we aren’t well enough to do the work and that’s because we’ve skipped the most vital part. The resting in Him, the being fed by Him, the allowing His healing to be completed first.
In practical terms, if you never sleep, you can’t work. If you never eat, you have no strength. If you are sick, you infect others.
It’s time to rest in Him, be filled up by Him, and allow His healing to take place. And I’m telling you today that it is OK. You don’t have to feel guilty or ashamed. You don’t have to feel like a failure or useless. He’s giving me permission. And if you are in a similar season, He’s giving you permission too.
Philippians 4:19 “You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, according to the riches of His glory in Jesus Christ.”